Love Denied

For the past thirty six years
I've beem living the same life
The same life I've lived 
Being a mother and wife

 Feeling the constant loss
of your love I was denied.
All alone with my feelings
My love for you I must  hide.

I thought that when I married
I thought my love for you would die.
To say I stopped loving you
I know would be a lie.

I'm sorry I was too weak
to go against my family.
The one that they chose
was the one that abused me.

If I could go back in time
I would follow my heart and soul.
My heart wouldn't have these scars
And my heart would be whole

Now I'm a wife and mother
and have grandchildren to love,.
But still you’re the one
My heart constantly thinks of.

There’s no turning back
life's time clock it seems.
For now we can only be together
In my memories and dreams 
dare2love dare2love
56-60, F
Aug 7, 2010