Walking Through My Field Of S**t

Excuse me while I take a moment to be graphic. I don't usually. But after reading some friends situations and comments I felt I would share this.

Anyone who has left a spouse or has thought of leaving and tried knows about the field of sh**t. It's all the unpleasantries you have to go through in order to leave, to separate, to divorce, whatever the case may be.

Three years ago, I finally had it and left, this was for a 3 month period. My mom was talking to me about all that would happen with money, the kids, the house. She said, "You will have a field of s**t to walk through." I never forgot what she said, it just stuck. I think it's a good analogy. She had traveled through her own with my father.

I can now say, I wasn't ready I guess to walk through all of that mess at the time. I have no regrets for returning and Im still unhappy. So when I get to thinking about when to leave and how to leave, I think of the field of s**t first.

It's out there waiting for us to cross when we are ready. I suppose the good thing is it washes off. We can start clean and fresh once our journey is complete. To me it's worth the dirtiness of it all.

I have been looking at that field for years and wondering what will give me strength, incentive, and ability to do it. I so want to walk through it and get to the other side!
soulrunher soulrunher
46-50, F
3 Responses Jan 6, 2013

I don't know that I've ever read a more accurate description of the whole separation and divorce process. Wear old clothes and disposable shoes, because there's really no way to get there without stepping in it.

Good luck, regardless of what you decide to do.

wow. i really wish i had the strength you do.

Well, I haven't done it yet! :)

When you do take the walk, on the days when you feel overwhelmed by the stink, you know where to go for a breath of fresh air.

You are right! :)