"It's Okay, I Don't Mind."

That's what that smile says to me if someone notices me eyeing their adorable little puppy as I resist the urge to scoop it up and smother it for a few minutes or seconds. It's the "It's Okay, You Can Pet My Pooch" smile.

A little less than a year ago, I was walking around a nearby neighborhood by mine when I notice an adorable little fluff-ball puppy in their front yard. As soon as I walked by it and that puppy saw me, it started barking happily and running straight for me and bouncing all over my knees. Who could resist that?

So next thing I know I'm on my knees on the floor and I'm petting and grabbing that puppy, squeezing it to me, letting it bounce onto me, place its furry paws on my breasts as it leaned up to lick my chin and nibble on my neck. I laughed and stroke its ears and practically rolled around the floor with it, the pooch's delighted barks music to my ears. Then I heard the sound of a door closing.

I look up from the puppy and notice a man coming out of the house and walking towards me and the pooch. I get up, pick the puppy up in my arms and start walking towards him to give him the puppy when I noticed he didn't look happy at all. He didn't just look serious. He looked grumpy.

Ignoring the look on his face, I relinquish the puppy into his arms, give him a smile and say, "Cute puppy you got there." What does he do? He grunts, takes the puppy out of my arms and enters the house with it without a second glance back at me.

Um... Ooookay? You're welcome!

Just the way he handled that, I got the impression that he didn't really like or appreciate me playing with the puppy. Or maybe he just doesn't like me, although I wouldn't know why. He doesn't even know me. Or maybe it wasn't anything personal; maybe he just doesn't like random people touching or playing with his puppy. Maybe he doesn't trust people, suspects someone is going to steal it or something. Like I said, he doesn't know me and some people are just like that, I'm sure. Or maybe he was just in a bad mood. Maybe he got into a fight with his wife inside the house and then sees some girl out in his yard playing with the pooch and took it in a way he wouldn't have were he in a good mood. Or maybe it wasn't about me at all. Maybe he was just huffing and puffing about something that occurred at home and he just decided to bring the puppy in even though I was playing with it, just because it was late anyway. I don't know what that was about. All I know is that he was definitely unhappy about something. I don't know if it had anything to do with me playing with the pooch or not. It's a possibility, right?

So I like when dog owners smile at me if they notice me eyeing their pooch with longing. I'm very self-conscious about touching people's stuff, even their puppies. And I suffer inside when I see a cute puppy trying to run to me while their owner has them on a leash and not knowing if it's okay for me to touch it or give it a little love along with a gentle squeeze. So if a dog owner notices me eyeing their dog and gives me a smile, it's like receiving a green light to give it a little squeeze or to pet it, like they won't get mad if I do, like it's completely okay with them.
deadmoon deadmoon
22-25, F
Sep 13, 2012