I live in a loveless marriage .My husband(of 35 yrs) and I have no communication what so ever. He is a cold person who thinks only of himself. He grew up in a family where there was no affection shown between his parents and from my observations very little affection shown to the children.I think his parents were more interested in having children(they had 11) than raising children.When we were first married we had a good relationship,good sex, enjoyed each others company and did things together.Now we go through the motions of being married.We have not had sex in 9 years.He no longer finds me sexually attractive.I no longer find him mentally attractive.I don't really miss the sex it's more the love that I miss.He doesn't touch me or hold me and when he kisses me it's like my Grandpa kisses me.I am grateful that he provides a good home and that kind of thing but wish he was my soul mate and truly loved me. Prehaps he can't love because as a child never really experienced love. Or maybe he's just a stupid selfish bastard who doesn't care how I feel.