Mind GamesJust as I was getting my head around the fact that my H wanted to lead a completely sexless life, he throws me a zinger.
He decides to come hot and heavy and blow my mind.
So there I am, thinking things are looking up...
A few days later, he makes romantic suggestions and seems to hint that he may be up for some action that night!!
YES..things were definitely changing..
So there I was, waiting for him all ready, and he comes up, turns over and starts SNORING!!!
Instead of crying silently, as is my usual response, I leave the room and go to watch TV.
Guess what, H comes looking for me and tells me he can't sleep because I'm not in bed with him!!!
So hope flares in my breast and I go back to bed for...a re-run!!!
H starts snoring, AGAIN!!!
Please excuse the bad language but, WTF?????
So now, I'm coming to the conclusion that, sex might be a weapon for him. He uses it to completely control my responses and is now ******* me on a string like a puppet.
My feelings of course, never come into it.
What do you all think of this? Any suggestions on how I should react?
My solution is to take a vow of celibacy. The last go-around was IT!
If you wonder why I'm still here, I have a young son who is devoted to the father and I WILL NOT do anything that might hurt him.
eternalhope 36-40, F 9 Responses 2 Jul 4, 2010