He's Finally Taking Testosterone..........3 times a week for awhile now.....and nothing. I asked, "Do you feel anything? At all?" His reply, "Not really." Ummmm....okaayy....that's it? No elaboration on that? At the beginning of this ordeal (3 years last month)...he blamed me. That I stressed him out, work stressed him out...the house wasn't clean enough...that I didn't show HIM enough affection (this coming from the most NON-affectionate man I know)...blah blah blah. Then it moved to.....he's still stressed, just has NO interest AT ALL...not with me...not with anyone....just NOTHING there. THEN....he finally went to a doctor who told him...1st: he's depressed. Well...no ****. I knew that from the get-go..he just didn't believe in all that psycho-babble..thought it was just mind-over-matter. He learned real quick THAT way of thinking got him nowhere. 2nd....his testosterone was really low. Ok. So....he's on meds for the depression, he quit drinking pretty much except for wine, he quit smoking for the 2nd time...he started giving himself testosterone shots. His mood has changed DRAMATICALLY....he no longer stresses about the little crap that would put him through the roof....over all....a HUGE improvement. I'm happy about that. But....alas.....nothings changed as far as sex. 3 very very long years of NOTHING continues for me....I don't know how much more I can take. We have 2 great kids, been married for 18 years. There's history here. I love him and I know he loves me, but I'm tired of living with my roommate. I want my husband back. I'm so damned lonely. Even when we're 1 foot apart on the couch....I'm so friggin' lonely.
suzted7 41-45, F 8 Responses 3 Jul 5, 2010