My Husband Doesn't Want Me Anymore...I've gained a lot of weight. About 100 pounds since we met 7 years ago. I was not small then. But, we had no problems with sex. Over the last year, it has become more and more infrequent. I know the solution. I need to lose weight, and become more attractive to him again. Tonight, he promised me sex. He said, some foreplay, and definitely sex. But, he was asleep at 10:30pm so I assumed it was a no go for tonight. Most of the time, I don't feel sexy, and to be honest, at my size... it's like excerise. But, I just turned 30, and I'm craving it more and more. Mostly, just the feel of his hands on me. I sleep on the couch because I have sleep apnea and my snoring keeps him up, and the couch is more comfortable on my back. But, then a little bit ago, he called me into the bedroom. I went to the bathroom, brushed my hair, put on some perfume, and allowed myself to get excited. When I went in there, I got sex... for a few seconds until he was done, and satisfied... and I left feeling stupid, unwanted, unloved and unsatisfied. I'm thinking if I just give up telling him I want it, give up asking for it, give up hoping for it, then perhaps I can stop feeling so rejected. Maybe I'll just forget about it for a while, and try to take care of myself, lose weight, and feel good about me. And I'm hoping that one day I'll look up and he'll be there,.. wanting me again. Tomorrow, when I wake up, I start thinking about me. I can't keep feeling hurt and rejected all the time, it just plunges me deeper and deeper into self-loathing.
pianohands3256 26-30 13 Responses 1 Mar 30, 2011