I Live In a Sexless Marriage
im only 13-15 and i cut
people think my life is so great im a pretty 'fake' (to me) all ways over happy giggle love everything and just LOVE life
as u can see i dont
my dad will hit me(numerious) times and just always yell yell yell
i have no love only they care is that i get good grades they dont care how I feel no just there pride and if i get on time even if i was dieing they never ask r u ok or how was your day no just what did u do trouble?! or what did u get on the test no good job or least u tried
i have no one to rely on or talk and it eats me alive at home
there are TONS of storys of him but im just doing 2 short ones
my mom wanted in my room to get a book but i was changing and said no wait
then i walked over when i was done to comb my hair then my dad SCREAMED to open the door
why did i????????
then he grabed my sholders like no tommorw and dragged me down the stairs he said i hate you and i blacked out the rest but then he PUNCHED both of my arms(i was in 5th grade) so frikin hard and i had brusises for 2 weeks no joke
and he spanked me and all that ****
that was short to me there are worse but i just blank it out its the best to me
and another time i yelled ok to my mom then walked into my garage to get my dog food and he barged down the stairs and grasped my sholder/neck place and then it sliped and he was choking me for around 30 sec and it was hard.
its just taking me so much engery to rite this im just really just so meantally drained
i just started to cut 4 days ago
i tried to in 5th grade but i chickend out i only used a pencil and it did nothing
i use a shavors blade(reomend)
i just feel so usless and this is the only thing that show that IM in power my parents think i could never turn this they just think they can just only push and push, and i would never blow, well there WRONG
what im really scared of is people finding out well its pretty close to fall/winter so long sleeve will be in but i have 14 scars and how do i hide? i dress kinda of well reaviling so its odd to people if i EVER where sleeves even if it is snowing so im kinda stuck (HELP WANTED)
i feel so stupid right now a reallly young kid is cutting over this type of **** wow
people think my life is so great im a pretty 'fake' (to me) all ways over happy giggle love everything and just LOVE life
as u can see i dont
my dad will hit me(numerious) times and just always yell yell yell
i have no love only they care is that i get good grades they dont care how I feel no just there pride and if i get on time even if i was dieing they never ask r u ok or how was your day no just what did u do trouble?! or what did u get on the test no good job or least u tried
i have no one to rely on or talk and it eats me alive at home
there are TONS of storys of him but im just doing 2 short ones
my mom wanted in my room to get a book but i was changing and said no wait
then i walked over when i was done to comb my hair then my dad SCREAMED to open the door
why did i????????
then he grabed my sholders like no tommorw and dragged me down the stairs he said i hate you and i blacked out the rest but then he PUNCHED both of my arms(i was in 5th grade) so frikin hard and i had brusises for 2 weeks no joke
and he spanked me and all that ****
that was short to me there are worse but i just blank it out its the best to me
and another time i yelled ok to my mom then walked into my garage to get my dog food and he barged down the stairs and grasped my sholder/neck place and then it sliped and he was choking me for around 30 sec and it was hard.
its just taking me so much engery to rite this im just really just so meantally drained
i just started to cut 4 days ago
i tried to in 5th grade but i chickend out i only used a pencil and it did nothing
i use a shavors blade(reomend)
i just feel so usless and this is the only thing that show that IM in power my parents think i could never turn this they just think they can just only push and push, and i would never blow, well there WRONG
what im really scared of is people finding out well its pretty close to fall/winter so long sleeve will be in but i have 14 scars and how do i hide? i dress kinda of well reaviling so its odd to people if i EVER where sleeves even if it is snowing so im kinda stuck (HELP WANTED)
i feel so stupid right now a reallly young kid is cutting over this type of **** wow
By:
coolcas21
Age:
13-15
,
Female
