hi, let me introduce myself.. My name is Paul and I have just joined this site. Having browsed some of the categories on here I decided to add a story in th SM section. Dont get me wrong..I have a wonderful wife, three beautiful children, but a high sex drive. Since the birth of our last child 23 years ago now, my wifes interst in sex has fallen to zero. The more I try the less she wants. She says it is not me, but refuses to seek advice. I love her with all my heart ,but started txting a female collegue, which then turned to sex txting and led to the inevitable. Sometimes I think I am weak in giving into my needs, other times I feel the pressure is off my wife to give what she does not want to give. Now i have lost my way and am being selfish by having sex with my friend with benifits and that is all it is, and loving my wife in such a deceitful way. I have tried to stop and sometimes have gone for months on end.. but eventually needs take control of my weak mind. Am I alone here?