One Or Two QuestionsWhy do I need to schedule sex? Why do I need to work like a dog to get my spouse to notice me? Why do I have to try alone to solve a relationship problem? Why do I have to accept that married life will never be what I dreamed it would be? Why do I have to have sex with someone that isn't attracted to me? Why do I have to have sex with someone I can no longer be attracted to? Why do I have to forfeit the opportunity to be with someone that loves me the same way that I love them to be with someone that does not? Why do I have to feel empty after having sex with my spouse if I'm "lucky" enough to have the opportunity? Why do I have to think and act in ways that are against my nature in order to sustain an unfulfilling relationship? Why do I have to be true to someone that doesn't fully appreciate it at the expense of being true to myself? Why do I have to be frustrated instead of fulfilled? Why do I have to settle?
And if I choose to do and be all these things diligently, consistently and endlessly, is that what success feels like? Is there some honour in that? If I embrace these things, does this command your respect and admiration? Is the respect and admiration of many a substitute for a passionate kiss from one?
I've been away for a while, I just needed to spout.