Just Really Hurting Right Now
I've spent the last several days doing everything I know how to do to make my wife desire me to no avail. I kept thinking, well, if I really go out of my way to show her my appreciation for her, she will want me. So yeah, I'm kinda new at this. I'm feeling such emotional pain I feel sick. feel like vomiting, feel like curling up into a ball to disappear. I'm starting to see this is not going to change. I can't live my life like this. I want a healthy and I'd even settle for somewhat happy marriage, I want to have children. I can't stand this feeling of being so alone when she is less than thirty feet away.