Seven Years In A Sexless Marriage And Starvation
I have been married for 21 years, the last 7 of which have been sexless. My husband's lack of interest coincided with a job loss and aging. At first when my husband explained to me that sex was immature, I felt ashamed of my feelings even dirty for wanting to be with a man. I know that my husband loves me; maybe this is all in my head, afterall, woman aren't supposed to feel this way.
On more than a couple of occasions, I overcame my shame to ask him to go to the doctor. He went and came back with a diagnosis of low testosterone, once in a while he even filled a presc
On top of everything else, I have felt undesirable for the better part of a decade. Now, here's my bad. I feel so unattractive that I 've started returning mens' glances. I started looking for an affair. I think it's time to accept it and stop resenting my husband for what he can not change. (I have a little boy and I just don't believe that divorce is not going to hurt him)
But this has its difficulties too. It just can't be a roll in the hay with anyone. Ironically, it was about the sex but, it wasn't. It was about the intimacy.
I have been comforted by other people's stories. I just found this site; until today, I felt completely isolated and ashamed. I have gone alone to see a psychologist. I've prayed and cried about it endlessly to no avail. Strangely, the only time that I feel normal is when I am hungry because this is a form of starvation.