My Husband Told Me He Hates Me.My life in review:
Met him in 1996, Got married at 18 (in 1998), tried having kids but was unsuccessful and it caused some strain on our relationship, I changed jobs alot because I was trying to find what was right for me, he has split us up 4 times before, he cheated on me...I cheated on him, im always the one fighting to save our marriage, I got a good job, thought things were looking up, economy went to **** and we lost our home and vehicles, I got pregnant and had a miscarriage, got laid off from my job, he left...we got back together, I got pregnant and things started looking up again, had a beautiful baby boy (who's gonna be 2 in a few days), I enrolled in a local college because I want to become a nurse, now he wants a divorce.
I honestly can not think of any reason why he would look me in the face and say I HATE YOU. If anything I should be saying that to him. He told me that he wanted me to go to school, then a couple weeks ago told me I was worthless because I dont have a job. Im a FT mom and college student and now he wants me to work FT. He doesnt do anything as a family anymore. He sits in front of the TV everyday after he gets home from work and has been doing the same on the weekends. He starts fights with me constantly. I cant take it anymore and I think divorce would be best. It still hurts though. Why is he so back and forth and full of drama all the time? He doesnt do anything with our son and I have pretty much raised him alone thus far, but he expects to have rights. How do I trust him to take care of him? And is it wrong for me to feel that he shouldnt have that right since he hasnt had anything to do with him? I dont have any friends to talk to or hang out with. I feel so broken and alone. I keep trying to figure out what I did and I hate it. We havent had sex in almost 3 years now. I was pregnant the 1st year, the second year was trying to get used to life with a baby, and the third I initiated several times but he denied me. That made me feel worse so we havent slept in the same bed in a year.
I would leave but I have no one. I dont have a job but have been looking. I think of everything we went thru and eventho I have my son now, I never really had the chance to grieve the loss of a child. Then adding the look on his face when he said he hates me. How can he really feel that way?