ReconsideringWow. After everything that has happened, now I am reconsidering a divorce. I was as sure as I could be. Now I'm less sure. In the last four days, I guess my wife has decided she actually likes me and wants me. I'm very confused by this and my own feelings. It's just so nice to be treated nice for a change.
Interesting thing: I've had trouble sleeping for years, but after I told her I wanted a divorce, I sleep like a baby. Now she wants to sleep in my bed, which I can't turn away...I've been starving for affection for so long.
I've gone through being sad, mad, angry, and even feeling guilty. Not sure why I feel guilty, but I do. Maybe it's the Catholic upbringing. Anyway, now she's interested in me, wants to do things with me, compliments me, hugs me, etc...It makes me feel so happy. Still, I don't trust it. I think, if I stay, once she knows I am staying, things will go back to the way they were before.
FilteringMachine 31-35, M 17 Responses 0 Jan 22, 2012