AffairHere I am. The last couple days I've been flirting with an affair. It's astounding how powerful it is to know someone desires me and is anxious to touch me, to feel my touch. I have known this man for about 20 years. We haven't talked since 2008, but I hit a low and , yes, I know this is a crutch. Sometimes getting your exit plan in motion takes too long, and you need something to take the edge off.
There is a substantial distance between us, so a physical meeting is down the road, but I fully intend on consummating this thing SOON!!!
Emotional pain meds, temporary self esteem boost, a shot of steroids to my strength. Which I do after all need to muddle through.
I am aware it's risky, I know this could severely crimp my exit plan, but I don't care anymore. This is actually the least of the evils, all my other coping mechanisms were MUCH more self destructive.