What was a terrible weekend between us has turned into an even worse week.
His controlling nature has kicked into high gear. As soon as he sensed I was angry, and before I could share why, he found something to be angrier about. (Sidenote: he's angry about an $8 sweater I ruined in the laundry...). This is his typical behavior pattern. He prioritizes his anger above mine to negate it. His anger is silent and oppressive. He avoids my presence. He refuses to talk to me.
So Baz, no problems establishing the physical separation. That's well in place now :-)
I have my discussion points in-hand. I can stay with my mom if I absolutely need to.
Had one of those, "what the hell am I doing?" moments last night. It went away pretty quickly, though.
We have never extablished a healthy line of communication. Frankly, it's amazing we lasted this long. Ironically, it's going to be in our demise where we learn to really speak to one another. How sad. I am thinking of writing him a letter to kick off the discussion...can't quite get rid of those training wheels yet.
I entered this marriage with little relationship experience. I will take these experiences to heart, and learn from them.
When I drew the line in the sand a few months ago regarding our lackluster, dysfunctional sex life his response was something like, "I guess I should feel pretty lucky to have a problem like this (i.e. all he heard was that wife wants more sex)." This self-absorbed mindset could be what led to this past weekend's events...he now thinks I want it whenever I can get it. He keeps ignoring the quality aspect. He doesn't prioritize communication or intimacy. He demonstrates that he thinks he can just start pumping away and I'll be grateful.
So many wasted years...I'm moving on.