I Didn't Expect This
I've been with my husband for 10 years, married for 8. We seemed to have a good marriage for the first year, but ever since we had children, and our lives turned upside down, we have absolutely no connection or intimacy. We have sex about 3-4 times a year. In fact, the only time we have sex is when we are on vacation or away from our kids, so I resent that he only tries to have sex just during those times. What about the rest of the year? I would rate our sex life, when we actually do have sex, as predictable and boring, so its not I'm missing it that much. What I'm missing os the PASSION that I used to feel during sex. I don't love my husband anymore, or at least I don't have any feelings of love toward him anymore, but I do care about him. He is the father of our kids, and I don't want our family to break up. He does not TRY in this marriage. He just brings home a paycheck, and is my roommate at this point. He doesn't initiate conversation, he doesn't initiate sex, he doesn't initiate ANY thing. Can you see why I don't have any feelings toward him? No brainer. Divorce is not in the picture. I'm just lonely as hell, and wish I had someone to share my life with. I long for an emotional connection. I never thought I'd be in a marriage this empty and dead.