I Hear The Death March Off In The In DistanceI've moved quite a bit ahead in my decisions. Surviving the now will be a snap once I have cemented the final nail in the coffin.
I will know by tomorrow if in fact what he says about his **** use and self satisfaction is true. He says he is "unable" to finish. I"ll spare you the details of how I know, but I will know because well I know him and his habits.
Sometimes I need that final nail to move forward, I guess I'm funny like that - I know I am not the only person who has to be certain to the highest degree before I can move on. In this relationship I have been gaslighted, etc. lied to, manipulated and I just need that one last piece of information to set my feet firmly on my path.
It actually feels pretty good.