Excited Trepidation ...Well, here it is in a nutshell. I have had some major discussions with my daughter and we are set to leave my H and son this summer. I am trying hard to give my H the benefit of the doubt but, as you all said, he has not changed, and I don't believe he will. My son has not changed either.
I did find out through asking around that my son does behave better when I am not around. Hmmm ... go figure. I have thought this to be true for years. So after talking to my psychologist, who is getting better by the way, I have made my decision.
I think that my son and husband will both have to mature if my daughter and I leave. They will have to take responsibility for their own actions, for the house care, the animal care, and for their own bills. I don't want them to fall on their faces but I think they might finally grow up. I'm tired of being everyone's mom. I need to take care of myself and my daughter needs a strong female role model. Neither one of us is happy that this is 99% sure going to happen but we are putting our best feet forward and making our plans.
I won't have any regrets about what I will do or not do as I am the one who has done everything to try and make this work. I feel that I have given him every chance to change the almost now inevitable outcome and he has not taken me up on the offering. His loss. I am trying to be strong and not falter although I know that I will falter and I will stumble. I just want my daughter to know she doesn't have to settle for not feeling loved, wanted, and desired. She deserves the best.
Wish me luck as I am now on the home stretch of a treacherous journey through a dark and twisted forest of despair. (sorry, I love desc
greenpfenig 46-50, F 5 Responses 4 Apr 27, 2012