I haven't posted in a couple of months. Truth be told, I stayed out of the ILIASM community for that time because the truths here were too raw for me to handle for a while. Getting a clear picture of what I have been enduring all of these years has been pretty brutal. As I said in an earlier post, I used to have hope, now I have abandoned it.

I had previously written that I was serously considering getting my needs met outside of my marriage. So far I have not done that. Stupid old school thinking about honor and vows and all that. Recently things have taken a turn for the worse, but not so much with the W, no changes there. Bottom line is I have been self employed for 7 years, and have enjoyed some success. Recently I have lost some significant income, and that has added a layer of stress that did not exist before. One of my thoughts had been to seek "professional help" in the getting needs met department. It seemed straightforward, no messy entanglements emotionally, and with a little care, relatively safe. With my income in the tank, there are no funds for such play, so that road is, at least temporarily, closed.

Still adrift in this miserable lake of fire.

DanteBurning2 DanteBurning2
46-50, M
6 Responses May 6, 2012

Wait Richardkiss knows something about a mechanical thingamaggigger, <br />
maybe he can give you a link at least you don't have to leave your house LOL

Stay positive. What you need to do is to workout a strategy to turnaround your finances. It will make life much easy for you. As for the intimacy department, a good sensual massage with a 'happy ending' may be a good idea. There is no need to suffer in silence, hoping that things might change one day. I think change will come only when we have the courage to act. Otherwise, we will be going in circles with this unresolved issue all the time. Lets get this straight. Intimacy is a basic human need. For people with this need, unless the need is met, we, as humans do not function as we are supposed to. Good luck.

Yeah... a prostitute with no messy entanglements? A prostitute IS a messy entanglement. You say 'reletivly safe,' Yes, that may be true when compared to putting you johnson in a box of wild ferrets. A woman who sleeps with men for money sleeps with a lot of men. Don't put your health at risk that way.

Professional legal assistance seems indicated. Professional sexual assistance, not so much.<br />
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You really need a viable option to your present situation, and you have to create that option. A lawyer in your jurisdiction is a great way to start.<br />
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Whether you use the advice you get now, or keep it in your pocket for future use, or even if yopu never use it, it is still an option you have available. And that, has great value in and of itself. You are no longer "trapped". You 'could' get out.<br />
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Tread your own path.

Sorry to hear of your struggless. I know this is easier said than done, but try and stay positive. Just because your wife has worn you down don't let her affect the rest of your life.<br />
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Be strong things will turn around. And when they do enjoy your discreet play time. Hey you might like it so much that you decide to hand your wife the bill for her actions and demand she pay the account.<br />
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Have you previously seen a lawyer to see how you'd come out if you were to divorce? Maybe its time you at least explored your options.<br />
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Stay Strong & Goodluck

Thanks! I am struggling to stay positive, but it is a challenge. I have not seen a lawyer, but I have researched Illinois law to see how things would shake out if it came to that. Again, last resort, and I one I would like to avoid.

Broken and broke, I hear ya, life's a *****!

I'm so broke I can't even pay attention.

I'm so broke that I walk around with one shoe, and if you ask me "oh did you lose a shoe?" I'll say "no I found one". lol

haha ;)