I Am Done With My Sexless Marriage
I found this site a couple of weeks ago. It has been a great support to hear your stories. I just told my husband may 1 that it was too painful to continue the relationship and i was seeking a divorce. May 18 is our 10 year anniversary. I can not go on like this another year. And if we do go out i will have to listen to him talk and talk and talk about his strange spiritual belief. Come home and still wonder if there will be any sex. He was in complete shock and denial. All my reasons for the divorce are not a good reason in his mind. I have no voice in our relationship and if i do express thoughts and feelings they are put down by his own spiritual belief. He belives god has given him special revelations and all his suffering is a purififcation process so he can rule and reign with christ as an elect person. I think he likes to suffer and does not mind that i do too. Also there are no kind words. I am attractive he hardly ever tells me i look pretty. When i ask for acts of service well its bad idea too. For example we moved from California to.nebraska 3 years ago i have been asking for a firepit for our family to roast hot dogs and make smores we have 3 kids. But no its dumb idea. Finally his mom comes to town and he puts on a show and finally says oh im going to make my wife a firepit and wow he actually touched my back!! I have been asking for years for quality time like just making dinner together. Well after serving him the papers he actually made me something to eat two nights in a row!! I felt sad and guilty cuz it was such a nice gesture but not enough to change my mind. And after 10 years he does not know how to put on rubber! I have no hope that the sex will get better. We went through 6 years of pretty regular counseling and when we talked about sex and what i like how i enjoyed to be touched he said i am sick of touching her how she wants. She just has one little pleasure spot!!! And i also said i like to hold hands have my hair stroked and massage. Well its a long story..hopefully i will have sex life soon.