I Had Come From East !!!!

I understand now how hard it has been for you to believe that I was too good to be true for you ! I came from East ,Middle East ,where we die for our family and Love .You were my love ,and I was proud of giving you services and love as my love ,heart ,and husband ! The more I gave you love ,with my whole heart ,the more you were shocked ...I understand you now ...you could not believe somebody like me ,educated , beautiful , respectful,smart ,stylish from a wellknown family , from 7300 years culture would come and make you her whole life and love . I came from a backround that my husband was everything for me , meant life to me ,and i kept myself away from other men just because of him.I kept my body ,my soul , my spirit so pure an dclean just for YOU . I came to devote myself to you ,my only love in my life and it sound too unreal for you to accept . I understand why now ...because you and people like you had not seen and felt love that much huge and pure ....! My love was tons and your heart was so small that could accept only micro ! LoL 3 Months after marriage I asked you what the problem was that you would not want to sleep in bed with me or touch me ,and you did not say anything . I told you if I had any problem ,I would be happy to correct that ,and you said I was a perfect wife ! I was so stupid ( too modest ) to think maybe you had issues and problems ! I start to hate myself because I felt I was a prostitute in bed ...always I had to initiate ! I was 16 years younger ,and you were a healthy strong man ...what the damn was your problem ? I asked you to wash my back once and instead of joining me in the bathtube you bought me a brush ! I loved to shave your ears and nose just to have fun , touch you an dpamper you ,and you showed me your nose hair trimmer ! Were you crazy ? when I was in labor ,after I delivered my baby , I went back home , to funeral home to arrange his funeral ,since the time i was in labor till now I have not had any rest ...just working to keep you happy and comfortable at home . After a few month you said I had strong legs ....how stupid was that ? You had not seen my legs for 1.5 years before labor ??? How come ? Have you ever touched my hair ? Do you see my hair ? Have you ever touch my body ? I am sorry for myself that little by little I am getting older and older and nobody enjoyed my body ...my beautiful eastern clear and shinny skin ! I thank you for buying painkiller cream for my arthritis in my hands ,but do you know that my hands hurt too much that I can not rub the cream on them ? I need somebody to do that for me !!! I have Arthritis because since the moment I entered your house I have been working to make your house look nicer ! You know I just have you around ...first 10,000 KM far from my country and now you moved again 15,000 KM from my country ! And you always avoid me ! I would not trade the time that I could have coffee with you ,just sit and have a chat with you with whole world ,and you always wanted to leave me alone . My baby was dead ,still fresh in the graveyard while I was sleeping upstairs and you were watcing damn TV in the livingroom ? where was your pride when I had to cuddle our dog instead of our baby and cry to sleep ? One night I just wanted to call the police so that they come and take me to their office so that I could have some people ( alive human being ) around ,just not to be alone ...and i called the women shelter , I went there an dcame back home just because of my lovely dogs and still you were watching TV and did not NOTICE !!!!!


what is having an affair in your culture ?

Just sleeping with somebody else physically ? No ....each night that you ignored me and avoided me you were having an affair with TV or the games on your computer !

 Where did all the money go that I did not spend on my beauty , on my friends , on clothing ...on anything ...???? where did the money go ,the money that I could buy a ticket to go see my family after 4 years ? You spent them all on toold in canadian tire !!!!!! Now I have to be worried that I have no money and no place to go ....and some of the people in sexless marriage website they have left me some comments mentioning that I am lazy and I don't work although I am educated ...! Because since I entered his house I have been working .... I am tired ... I had PHD but where he was living there was no town around to work ....ao I worked as a cook , I washed dishes , I mopped floors ...to keep myself occupied ...and I am sick , tired ,weak ... I just need to rest ! Rest even for a day !!!!!!