Working In All-male Environment & Loving It

For the past 2 weeks I have been working in an all-male environment. Nothing has made me feel more feminine! While it is very physical labour, anything I ask gets done (i.e., "i'm having trouble opening this, could you help?") I am succeeding and excelling at the job too. I've blown past many negative, sexist environmental issues to get where I am now.

I'm not positive I want to be in this trade forever, but the feeling I get of being FEMALE while still belonging is great!

I also am NOT attracted to the people at work which makes it much easier - I see them as co-workers and am so busy and exhausted at the end of the day (did I mention it's hard physical labour?) that I really am not "pining" away for anyone.

But I do now feel if I went searching for someone I would not feel "unattractive". I am getting much better at being around guys without feeling inadequate or like I have to change myself.

Who knows what the future will bring? But for now I'm physically exhausted, happy, learning, and respected. At least NOT AT HOME ha ha.

As to STBEx, I have put that off until my 4 week stint at this factory is done - then I am looking for part time work & will work on that separation agreement. We have told our children. We have started telling friends. I have not yet told parents - my worst nightmare really.

STBex went to emergency yesterday as he had a bad drug reaction. That part sucked, but being alone with the kids for the day was HEAVEN. When STBex is around, I am jittery, am always "on-guard", nothing spontaneous, etc. Kids are unsure who to turn to.

again who knows what future will hold? I've made my mistakes and I'm learning you can move on from some of them.
zsuzsilowinger zsuzsilowinger
36-40, F
1 Response May 13, 2012

Yes...working with men is exhilirating! Their way of interacting is completely different, and they have a way of making you feel as though you are beautiful despite your depleted self-esteem. I've worked in a man's profession for years, and I've become a much more rounded person as a result. I've learned the strengths and weaknesses of my femininity.<br />
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It sounds like the universe is bringing you exactly what you need. Isn't that great? You're doing so well. Keep going...there's much beautiy on this path!