I Did It Part FourYesterday, someone actually came up to me and asked if what they heard was true and if there was any chance of us getting back together? This same person was someone I talked about it.. two years ago with! All I could think is, WTF!?!?
I start my holidays and quite simply I am feeling overwhelmed. Its 5:30 AM Saturday and I want to run back to bed, pull the covers over my head and hide. He has literally collected boxes and left them everywhere. It is chaos to me right now.
But, this is my choice! I have to keep reminding myself that this is for the best. It was my choosing.
I think what pissed me off last night is how he told me he was looking for a house to buy, move out of the city and told me* that we need to get our ***** moving. It was cold the way he said it to me. I felt it was thrown into my face. It was a ****** night. It was plain mean. I guess until now, I was the one who told him we were not going to be together anymore or live together. That partnership is gone.
As hard as I am trying to be civil and act like an adult, I can see things starting to brew. Last night I saw part of the ugliness.
I am flying out on holidays Wed and in the meantime I am going to pack one box at a time.
Right now, I feel a bit lost. I feel as though I have to re carve my own identity. I feel as though I lost a part of me along the way.
seemedlikeagoodideaatthetime 36-40, F 6 Responses 1 May 19, 2012