Happy I Am Not Alone, Sad So Many Are Going Through The Same Thing
I love my husband and he loves me. But our marriage is more of a partnership now than a marriage. A few years (5) ago he started having problems...down there. It has been a slow steady decline. Started with not being able to finish to now, nothing. We have been to the doctors...he has taken the pills. No help. He wants to, but his body just will not let him. I went through all the normal "oh my god it's me" moments. I've cried. I've gotten mad. Felt resentment. I've tittered on the notion of an affair.....but wouldn't that be as wrong as him holding me in a sexless marriage?? Which he isn't holding me. He has said he is just waiting for me to have had enough. He knows I can not last like this. I'm in my mid 30's, a very sexual person. I just do not know what to do....I'm lost!! I feel so guilty.....for better or for worse rings through my head. Should I say okay...this is your life....sex is out...get the heck over it!! The emotional and physical toll is tremendous. I feel less of a woman. It's not just about filling a need or a void or calming urges....it's so much more than that. I need that intimacy. The bonding. I need some advice. I'm I selfish for wanting sex or I'm I normal for feeling this way? Should I face the inevitable...divorce? Any helpful suggestions would be appreciated.