I Am Feeling Sorry For MyselfI love my husband BUT I find myself in a situation that I feel almost sorry that I am a woman who has been and will always be faithful to him. Really.
I am mad at myself for putting myself into the position of "needing" him when he withholds affection, attention, affirmation, compliments, positive thoughts, finances and even his time from me. I believe that this is all due to borderline personality disorder or mental illness. The past 7 months has been very lonely for me. I do not feel that we have emotionally (and physically connected) at all.
If he would AT LEAST try to emotionally connect with me, maybe the LACK OF PHYSICAL INTIMACY would not hurt me so much.
If we had a physical connection, at least, I could enjoy "connecting" with him in moments if there was no other emotional connection.
Now, I feel that he is emotionally FAR away.
Sometimes I wish I was FAR AWAY too.