That Sinking Feeling.Even though I prepare my self for disappointment, I can't control it.
When you think of everything and all the years, and that sinking feeling sucks out all the air out of your chest,
and just makes you want to cry uncontrollably..
In a few weeks it will be our 11 year anniversary, last year was suppose to be the BIG one, but nothing.
This year I expect nothing, I look forward to nothing and I ask for nothing....and when I get nothing, I will die a little inside.
No matter how hard I tell myself that, things won't go back to the way they were and to just give up, this still happens to me all the time.
It's like knowing if you don't cook dinner there will be no dinner to eat tonight, yet you still get dis appointed the moment you walk in the door to an empty table, how stupid right?
Guess I'm falling behind in my progress...again.
Thanks for listening.