I Am Not Broken

Today is day one. Day one of feeling whole again. I no longer feel as I did - broken, unloved, and deprived. I have awoken, to learn that I do not have to ever again be controlled by my ex, not do I have to be controlled by any in the future. I do not ever again have to be in a disfunctional relationship, and I won't be be allowing any one else to dictate my feelings of self worth.

I've said it before - get out. You won't believe how it feels to be free. Free from being run down, rejected, and manipulated. I basically lost everything through my marriage, and Only got it back through divorce.

Your refusers are literally destroying the inside of your head. Put your foot down and stop letting them use you.
FilteringMachine FilteringMachine
31-35, M
9 Responses Jun 2, 2012

While I am sorry for what you have had to go through, I am very happy to hear that you have gotten yourself out of a crappy situation.<br />
It takes a lot of strength and it very commendable. <br />
It is so hard to read about the pain you have felt because it is so palpable in your stories. But without knowing you, I can say I actually am happy and proud for you.<br />
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It is better to be be on your own and be happy and healthy, than to stay with someone and be miserable.

so happy that you were able to take a stand and branch out into a new life. Best of luck to you.

Congrats I know it's hard but so worth it. I walked away from a bad marriage almost a year and a half ago, I believe I am going to find the love of my life, it's so much better because I have hope now! Keep your head up believe and know you can do it on your own,expect good things

That is what I hope for. And that is what I have: hope.

this has meant so much for me! being alone is better than being rejected! i will always remember that. tnx!!!!

And just because we leave, does not mean we will be alone. Once you are out there people will be beating your door down.

I have finally said no to my refuser and am moving out. It has been sad, and liberating at times. Lately I have started to feel stupid for believing all of his excuses and lies. He is all about getting me back and making sure he looks sad and mopey at all times which lately has me feeling awful. Your strength made me feel better tonight. Thank you:)

Don't feel stupid...he was just a really good liar.

Indeed.<br />
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You either pay the pain bill as it stands today, or you pay it later when more punitive pain interest has accrued and compounded on the principle making the price then, way higher than it is now.<br />
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Tread your own path.

Being "only lonely" IS so much better than being rejected... absolutely...<br />
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Feels good to finally get here doesn't it...

Yes, yes it does!

....oh stop rubbing it in you two: p

'Tis true, 'tis true... lol

Gives me hope. Thank you, and you have my congratulations. I know it was hard earned.

This is great, I am very happy for you. You are speaking my language with this update....I feel like I am not that far behind you. I can see myself feeling and saying the exact same thing , soon I hope! Thank you for posting.