Leaving It BehindSo, my rage has passed. Sometimes I am like the weather in the midwest. Don't like how you feel? Wait five minutes, it will change. Now I find myself a bit emotionally disconnected, and don't really feel anything.
Which, to honest, is a huge step up from the nearly continuous pain I've felt. First from my marriage, then from the process of breaking down what I really think was a codependent relationship. I more than loved her, I needed her.
Anyway...now I feel like I want to simply put this behind me. I don't want to keep thinking about my marriage, it is draining away my desire. It's making me not really want to think about sex, and I fear ending up like her. Honestly I think my heart is trying to protect itself, to wall itself off. I find my normally strong sense of empathy dissolving, my understanding nature becoming less so.
I'm sure this is part of the process of getting over someone.
What have your experiences been? How did you feel in the month following the divorce?
FilteringMachine 31-35, M 9 Responses 1 Jun 16, 2012