I Can't Help How I Feel............My wife refused sex with me effectively for 20 years. We had absolutely no sex since 1999.
She died recently (Her refusing was nothing to do with her illness), and although I've publicly been praising her and expressing my grief, privately I'm angry with her. Angry that she robbed me of my sexuality. Angry that she denied us both a happy intimacy. Angry that my sex life ended when I was 35, and, because of my age and the very rural location I live in, I have very little chance of ever meeting anyone else.
I feel guilty about this, as, despite everything, I did love her and she was my best friend. Anyone experienced anything similar?