Second Verse...same As The First.Hello everyone, I decided since I've been here since 2008, it's high time I introduced myself! I feel like I know most of you. I've been lurking here, reading, crying, cheering some of you on and secretly sharing in all of your stories, both good and bad. I'll make this short and sweet since its the typical sm story. Got married in 1998. Dated off and on for many years before that. All told we've known each other 20 years. I didn't see any problem with our sex life until about 8 years ago when it suddenly occurred to me we hadn't had sex in weeks. I brought it up, he had the excuses....stress, work, blah blah and we got back on track.....for a while. Then the next time I thought "WTH! It's been 3 months"! I brought it up, he made the excuses and this time he went to the doctor to see about his low libido. They found nothing wrong, we got back on track again. See the pattern? Yeah, me too. This has been going on for years with the time in between getting longer and longer. It's now been a year and a half......and I'm done. I was always the one to bring it up. I told myself long ago when it gets to the point where "I" am no longer willing to talk about it, I'll know that's it-that's my turning point. So now I'm making my exit plan. Maintaining the status quo until I'm financially able to leave. He has no idea. I'm sure he's perfectly content to not have to have the "conversation" yet again...
I see a lot of talk about leaving the bedroom and sleeping in another room, becoming room-mates and what not. In my situation all this is alleviated by the fact that he's a truck driver. Gone mon-fri and sometimes 2 weeks at a (GLORIOUS) time. So I sleep alone for the most part anyways. Even when he's here he stays on his side of the bed. There's a nice invisible wall between our sides of the bed. This has made the waiting for the departure so much easier.
There's so much more to this but I'll leave that for other posts. Thanks for listening my little secret SM family!
jaimie42 46-50, F 11 Responses 1 Jul 5, 2012