I Live In a Sexless Marriage
Okay, my wife left a couple weeks ago, and the time has been painful, chaotic, lonely, busy, and tiring.
But I'm reading alot and talking alot. I am recalling all the times she called me names, out of spite. "Gay" was a favorite of hers, because she thought I didnt want to have sex with her. No, I didnt want to have sex when she was being abusive or drunk. I am attracted to the female body.
Asking me if I can "get it up" when getting ready to have sex. Why would someone ask this? I had one (1) episode after drinking heavily, why does it come up every time after?
She gets angry if I don't make dinner. She refuses to wash dishes. Makes the kids do stuff for her instead, her "slaves" as she says. Get her water, get her book, get her the phone.
Me and the kids are not her slaves. We do these things to make her happy, but it doesn't make her happy, just avoids wicked behavior for a minute.
Now she is gone, and I really am at the point where I do not want to see her at all. I am afraid that she will start a fight or pick on me or something. Exchanging our daughter seems to work best if I don't have to see her.
I am not that subserviant, I don't want to be. She is ill alot for various things, nothing life threatening, but ruin the fun in life. Sometimes I wonder if she is sick just to avoid work, or helping around the house.
Then once in a while she will go on a terror of cleaning, and rearranging, and cleaning, and is sure to call her family and her friends and tell her how busy she is cleaning. I just shake my head thinking "I clean almost every day".
But now she is gone. I am no longer her slave. I am free. I enjoy my time alone with my daughter immensely. I am starting to be happy, for short moments, that the monster is gone.
But I'm reading alot and talking alot. I am recalling all the times she called me names, out of spite. "Gay" was a favorite of hers, because she thought I didnt want to have sex with her. No, I didnt want to have sex when she was being abusive or drunk. I am attracted to the female body.
Asking me if I can "get it up" when getting ready to have sex. Why would someone ask this? I had one (1) episode after drinking heavily, why does it come up every time after?
She gets angry if I don't make dinner. She refuses to wash dishes. Makes the kids do stuff for her instead, her "slaves" as she says. Get her water, get her book, get her the phone.
Me and the kids are not her slaves. We do these things to make her happy, but it doesn't make her happy, just avoids wicked behavior for a minute.
Now she is gone, and I really am at the point where I do not want to see her at all. I am afraid that she will start a fight or pick on me or something. Exchanging our daughter seems to work best if I don't have to see her.
I am not that subserviant, I don't want to be. She is ill alot for various things, nothing life threatening, but ruin the fun in life. Sometimes I wonder if she is sick just to avoid work, or helping around the house.
Then once in a while she will go on a terror of cleaning, and rearranging, and cleaning, and is sure to call her family and her friends and tell her how busy she is cleaning. I just shake my head thinking "I clean almost every day".
But now she is gone. I am no longer her slave. I am free. I enjoy my time alone with my daughter immensely. I am starting to be happy, for short moments, that the monster is gone.
By:
Charlie51
Age:
41-45
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Male
12
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