Is This What It Feels Like?I have really started to allow myself to know what I know. I am truly realizing and accepting that my marriage is over and I will be leaving my husband. It's all setting in.
Last night after another couples therapy session I was as usual very upset, confused, frustrated and annoyed. That's a story all in itself. Anyway somewhere around 8pm it really hit me like two tons of bricks. I have no idea what really triggered it but I was crying. It felt so painful and almost unbearable! For hours and hours I cried. I was going to write this last night but couldn't even get myself together to do it.
I won't go on and on about it but here's what I want to know from those of you who are going through or have gone through this. Is that what it feels like? I mean WTF! Does it get worse? Does it get better? When? How the hell have so many people made it through this?!?! I know I can be pretty emotional but DAMN!!
I met with my therapist today and she suggested that I find a support group as I have no friends supporting me and my family is oh so caught up on the religious rules regarding divorce. She is right. Support on my end is very lacking and most of the time I am justifying to myself and a few others why I want to leave. She gave me a few contacts for support groups and I really hope it helps.