This will be short and sweet, simply because I wanted to write *something* here....I actually want to climb a tower or mountain and shout it..... "I'm getting OUT!!!!"

I'd had a timeline...only told a few people because I was afraid I'd back out. I'd promised myself that come hell or high water (or the sudden backing-out chicken-**** attack of fear mentioned above) that I'd be out by September 1st.

I beat my goal by a month and a day.

It has been surprisingly amicable so far, but I'm going in with open eyes.

It's scary.

It's surreal.

And it's waaay past time.

To those of you on the brink, living without joy, I encourage you to follow.
To those of you still here that have gone before me...thanks for lighting the way.

I've survived much of the last two days on caffeine and cigarettes...time to crash and burn. I've some sleep to catch up on before I start joining the living again.
msdamgoode msdamgoode
41-45, F
19 Responses Jul 31, 2012

Glad to hear that things are amicable. Take care of yourself and recognize your strength and courage. Peace,D

(hugs) from those of us who are still finding our way out of the tunnel...the light you shine inspires us!!!<br />
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xo<br />
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Well Done MsG! So glad to see you are feeling good about it - because it IS a good choice. Not easy, not pain free - but a wise choice for you and for your future.<br />
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Keep us updated on how things go, and remember we are here to support you. {{{Hugs}}}

Congratulations! This is great news. I predict that you're about to embark on what will the best period of your life.

Been there... did it too! Good luck honey!... ;-) Trace

Fantastic. I've been listening to your story, your determination and focus is palpable. And likely, your ex<x>pression on here has helped you keep on track. And the tracks multiply from now on, your call!<br />
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One thing I'd encourage is to be kind to yourself in terms of decisions and changing your mind - it's OK to do that or revise plans as they go. You already know you can follow through with tough decisions, yet equally it doesn't mean you have to nail yourself if you decide to change you mind. Which I do NOT mean in respect of what you've achieved - terrific job!

Woooohooo! We've got your back, friend!

Huge cosmic hugs! Thank you...

23rd April 2012 you open up proceedings with a story detailing a small but positive step in your reclaimation of your life. Returning to the wearing of feminine undies. Nothing else on your agenda at that time, just doing something for YOU.<br />
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And from that, you moved on to the next thing - for you - in your process of uncovering your truth(s). Then the next, and the next, and the next.<br />
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By a process of embracing your obligation of choice, and basing said choices on your truth(s) you moved incrementally forward.<br />
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To here, and now.<br />
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And you know the best thing ? This goes on indefinitely for you, into your new life, post ILIASM. The world of informed choice. I rather think you are going to be a stand out success at this business of living from here-on in.<br />
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Tread your own path.

Baz, those words mean a lot to me. Thank you.

Beautifully and accurately said, Baz!

I congratulate you. I have been in a bad situation for a similar amount of time, but with children involved, I am stuck, watching the days, weeks, months, years drift away. I have a plan, too, and hope that I am able to act when the time comes. From what I see in your previous posts, you have rationalized the mess, much as I have been doing. I am thrilled that you are moving on to a better life for yourself! You are an inspiration.

Yay - for you..<br />
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Hope you hang around to prod us with stories from the other side....

I plan on it---I realize that I've only had a day to absorb it all. It's twenty years of ******-upedness to process. How to unravel everything you twine together in that amount of time won't be easy...but it's got to be better than the alternative.

Yes - and I for one am interested in the unraveling - hope to be there one day too. On or out...this can not continue forever.

Awesome :D I had put my plans on the back burner to momentarily tend to more pressing matters. It's a great feeling isn't it? If that fear pops up it's nasty little head, just stomp it to death, I'll help you clean off your shoes...

Yup! Been wondering how you and your husBro were....

Sounds like you're really ready, good luck in the future.

I'm so proud of you! And oh so happy for you!! Onward and upward!

Thanks, sweetie. Big hugs. You're next!

You know it!

Sweet dreams?

Well, since we're in a questioning mood...thank you?


No! No serious questions. Just always unsure whether an observation is always appropriate. Given the stress and anxiety you have been through I was just wondering whether it is yet possible. I hope it is.

Welcome to the other side. <br />
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Congratulations!!! We're here if you need us ;)

I admire your courage.

Breathe...and keep moving forward. Remember, doubts and fears come in waves and they do subside and lose intensity over time. One life to it with love, passion and intimacy. Be well.

Oh my goodness. Good luck to you, hon. :)