Update!!!!So the last time I wrote I was in the depths of despair. I found out the real reason for my sm, which was horrifying but also freeing. Since that day I've filed for divorce, kicked the husband out, and I've spent the last couple weeks being emotionally supported by friends and family. I'm working through how the last 15 years have been nothing but a lie and I'm looking forward to the future. Had a heart to heart with my STBX and he revealed that he had been molested by 3 different people as a child. Im the only person he's ever told. If only he had faced that demon years ago.....
He's being compliant, very compliant. He's doesn't have an attorney and intends to give me pretty much whatever I want out of the divorce. He is paying the bills and giving me money every week. He is helping me to take care of some things around here, for example we had a horse that needed to be rehomed and he took care of that. (we have a small hobby farm). The oven quit working and he called a repairman to come out. I have no complaints. In the next week or two we are going to sit down and I wil outline exactly what I want as far as the house,our son, etc. If he agrees and I don't know why he wouldn't, my attorney will draw up and file the papers, we will waive the 90 day waiting period and I will be a single woman!!!!!
In the meantime, just in case he gets a wild hair, I have a temporary order of support and custody- cuz I'm no fool ;)
I just want to thank everyone here too! You guys are the best when it comes to lifting someone up and helping them to see the light!
I haven't given up on love, never will. I'm a dreamer and I believe there is someone out there just waiting for me :)