I Haven't Even Told Anyone

I haven't even told anyone that I have been in a sex-less relationship for over 2 years now, ever since my boyfriend and I conceived our son: who's now 15 months old. I don't know why, Well I know that I love sex and making love, flirting and kissing. Btw, on top of that, I haven't made- out with him for about 2 years. So I guess it's not just sex-less, well it's just sad. Urg, I don't know how to even begin to write this stuff. I don't know what I did. I don't know. How dis we get here? He blames it on the medication he takes. (I'd rather not disclose the type) but I just don't care about his excuses anymore. I honestly have never been so lonely. Thanks for listening, who ever you are.
Jessyrox33 Jessyrox33
26-30, F
5 Responses Aug 9, 2012

It feels so muuch better to talk about it and not feel alone. My husband and I have been together for 8 yrs and married for 2. We haven't had sex since we've been married, and I just started talking about it with close friends and a few close family. We are trying couple's therapy, but I don't know if I see potential to dix the situation. If he doesn't want to, he doesn't. I do, and he won't. Idk...I just know I deserve a loving and intimate relationship, and so do you!

medication is no excuse for no affection, hugging, kissing and touching dont require a sex drive. Try to talk to him about it as non critically as you can...if he loves you, he will try harder~

You have told someone now - us - with anonymity. That's the start of your journey, so that you will out the lies and evasions.<br />
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His reasons are his, as are his motivations to change - if any. It's natural to think, what did I do wrong, what did I do to deserve this? One of the healing steps you can take is to read some more stories to realise that living like this is toxic, and he may never change. But you can, you can take action.

Best start planning your future life.<br />
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There would not seem to be a real lot of point in factoring him into such plans - other than as a co-parent.<br />
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Tread your own path.

i hope things get better for you.