The Truth Can Be Frightening, But Empowering As Well.

I am glad I found this site. Over the past few days I have read so many stories and I now feel a bit “uplifted” to realize I am not alone – there are so many others like me who struggle in a sexless marriage devoid of intimacy. I guess misery does indeed love company. My story is long and I won’t bore you with the details. But I can say this…sex IS VERY IMPORTANT and part of a normal, healthy marriage relationship. I am not going to deny this truth to myself anymore! I am tired of the rejection. I am tired of reaching out. I am tired of a relationship without intimacy – a relationship without passion. I will not blame my wife entirely for this failed marriage, but I can say to you all with complete honesty that I have done what I can and I there is nothing left for me to do but to accept the truth. The truth is, she no longer loves me the way a wife should love her husband. She does not care about my feelings. And with acceptance of the truth, I am going to divorce her after 28 years of marriage. Stumbling onto this site has helped me come to this conclusion as I can see so many others out there just like me who are made to feel worthless by their partner’s constant rejection. I am a person of value. I am a person who wants to be deeply intimate with another soul. When I make myself vulnerable – she should cherish it and protect me. I am not perfect. I love my wife, but I’m letting go of her so I can survive and hopefully, someday, find a new relationship that is based on trust and respect and those things will lead to intimacy. I accept the truth and I feel better today for embracing it.

Thank you all for listening. I have been in counseling for 8 months and it’s been a tremendous help to me. I’ve also confided in my doctor and my pastor…..AND, I consulted with an attorney. I have read many books and have “grown” as a result of this ordeal. I appreciate sex on a level unimaginable to those who get it on a regular basis. I can’t wait to be with a woman again and feel her embrace and know that she loves being with me as much as I love being with her. I no longer will allow myself to feel guilty for taking care of my “needs” alone. One of the real eye-openers for me though was finding this site! I am glad to be able to connect with others now who understand exactly what I am going through. I think I am going to hang out here for awhile.

By-the-way, at one of my counseling sessions I mentioned to my therapist how much "I hate Viagra commercials", so that was the source of my first story posted here on EP. I’m going to read it to her in a couple of weeks and I know she will crack up.