Sex???whats That

here i am 28 mother of one and another on the way ,married for just under a year to a man who couldn't give a dam about me don't think he has the ability to care i really don't think i can do this anymore its so hard i cant stop crying ,i worry all the time ,i can not live with this man no more but he wont leave he just refuses i would be better on my own he doesn't work , i pay the majority of the bills i can financially survive with out him ,my heart is fed up of him it hurts so much never taught i could get so heart broken this way really torn up running this pregnancy for everyone i really worried about the stress i'm bring on this unborn baby i really enjoyed being pregs the last time it was so easier we actually loved each other or something well to be honest i think our whole relationship was a bit rushed but that is another story for another day
the last time we had sex i cried when he was actually on top of me ,it is just horrible i can not comment or advise him to maybe do some thing the way i like it if i do say anything he basically freaks out saying stop trying to be so controlling which im not im just saying ok i would enjoy this better if u move your hand down a little bit instead of ripping the **** off me god then he d complain that sex is always the same and i'm so boring in bed o well the little ****** on the internet **** site do a better a job than any given woman ,he does all the handy work to himself for them anyway well according to his laptop history hee has the intimate encounters with those sites most nights which is a tad disturbing especially when i also found in the history a few searches in google for "teen ***** " now shud i be more disturbed and worried about this is he some kind sick of pervert i dont know what to make of that just seen it in there a few times it is a horrible relationship for me i just feel so trapped and allone all the time
,i swear i have gone to bed since on my own every night since iv met this man
he might decide to come to be a bout 3 or when it suits ,never thinks maybe she'd like to go to bed together and maybe have sex at a descent hour nah never happen anyway if he does try to come on to me its more or less in the kitchen he trys to drop his hand which i hate and find very awkward especially with our little toddler is toddling around the place ,we live near all his family n friends i have no one to turn too about this the one friend id have has told me to leave him countless times i feel she has enough on her plate besides listening to me about my marriage that i dont want to be in ,my story is scatty but hope someone may relate to this way