I seem to have no friends... Probably me too abrasive, I dunno. My wife of 29 years plans to leave and the house is now for sale. I have one friend across the country who texts me on occasion, but that's it. I'm a Christian not only in name but what I really believe so suicide isn't an option but the other week on my motor bike it started to get out of control for a few seconds and I was happy for the thought of it all ending.