Tragic End To A Sexless Marriage

Baz was right about the slug with my name on it. The only reason that I am here to write this is because I used my wits to diffuse my ex from killing me too and I also consider myself very lucky. Easy access to guns here in the states gives a person intent on self harm or harming others a convenient way to accomplish this. Because my ex did not leave a note, the Chief of Detectives who talked to me after the fact told me that he believed that this was an impulsive act. I am unsure of this for I realize that my ex had a very dark side. I am thankful that he did not kill anyone else even thought he had threatened this for years.

My life journey was not meant to end at that time and I have much to live for but suicide takes a huge toll on those left behind as in the case of this woman and her children. Recognizing that many of us go to the dark side at times in our lives but have the strength to chose life is a testament to the human spirits will to survive and move on to a better place on earth.

Also gaining the knowledge that we have no choice over others decisions whether it be a suicide or some other negative choices releases us from guilt and pain. I relate life to a swinging pendulum. Eventually it will swing from the dark side back into the light. Waiting out the dark can be very hard but it will happen if one does not give up. Seeking help during those dark times saves lives and prevents tragedies such as these.

I agree about the Kardashians. Why they have such a huge following is one of life's mysteries? So many of us lead much more interesting lives. Didn't one TV network cover the mother's boob job in place of the killings of Americans in the Middle East? Something is really wrong when " pseudo celebrities" fake **** are deemed more important as news. What a weird world we live in. Peace,D

OMG that's so sad, I hope you don't feel like that still.
(hugs)

Im sure we are all glad you didn't own at the time. I bet many of us here have walked the edge of darkness, looking for an end to the pain.

Seriously planning suicide drove me to a psychiatric hospital where I became a patient. Treatment helped me realise that my situation was at least partly to blame. There were other factors at play (there always are) but I finally realised I could no longer "swallow" my pain, without there being serious consequences.

Australia's gun culture is VERY different to that of the USA. I'm not sure where Canada stands on this. But I do know that, had I had easy access to a gun, I may never have reached that psychiatric hospital . . . .

I wrote a story a week or so ago.
Dest by Spouse- or something like that.
THIS is what I'm talking about!

Sometimes my sole accomplishment for the day is not killing myself. I used to tell myself that the only reason I was alive was that I was too cowardly to kill myself. Which made me even more despicable in my eyes. These days I have a son to live for. I agree with Baz, it is entirely possible that you have a purpose here that is not yet revealed.

I assume not "everything was fine, but sex"... and they were not the best friends... Is it really the solution? Guys? I would bless you to go and have any sex with anybody if it is the choice of life and death! Nobody would starve himself to death, why allow yourself to starve of the other BASIC need?!

I too live in a sexless marriage. It wasn't always this way, just the past 21 of the 32 years. I learned that sex doesn't always mean the same thing to different people. I, for instance, am married to a wonderful man but he's a zombie to me. He's mister social butterfly to everyone else. After marriage counseling, forced him to go, it hasn't helped a bit. He says that there's nothing wrong. I have been reading a lot and buying self help audio books and have come to the conclusion that only I can make me happy. I can only make myself happy. Do you see? You can lead a horse to water but you can't make him drink, and when you come to realize that you were only dreaming you had a stallion when in reality you had a jackass.

If you have not reached out for help, you should still do so, thats if you have not got your troubles already figured out.

My pistol is going to be with my brother for a few months...better safe than sorry.

These are lifes great imponderables.

Sister dartists ex DID have a gun. And reading between the lines there was a slug in it with her name on it. Yet she is still here (he ain't) - and thriving.

You can drive yourself nuts with "what if's" (and "why's") brother b.

It is entirely possible that the cosmos conspired for there to be no shotty available for you at that time - because you are here for a greater purpose, as yet not known to you.

Weird **** goes on in life. Like those ******* Kardashian idiots. Now there IS one of lifes great imponderables !!

Tread your own path.