It's More Than a Lack of Physical Contact That Hurts
I thought that when my husband and I married, we were best friends. We are married almost 10 years to the day, but we haven't had sex in over two years.
He sleeps on the floor of our family room, our son's room, anywhere but the bedroom. He had been out of the bedroom for so long that I finally told him that if he were to ever come back to sleep there, I would probably be the one sleeping on the floor, as I had become used to sleeping alone.
I feel unwanted, unloved and wish with all my heart I could pick up and just leave. However, I feel this loyalty to him, despite the lack of intimacy. Our issues started when I quit my "cushy" job to care for our son. I believe that my husband had become accustomed to me being the primary bread-winner and for the first time in his life, he was going to have to foot the majority of the bills. Even with him being the sole provider, he doesn't pay my bills, as my family assists me while I home school our son.
After 10 years, no honeymoon, not one vacation, constant interference from his family and two years of no sex, I search my soul for the strength to move on.