I Met Someone Beautiful (part4)Well...the weather in my part of the world is cold and dreary and not very pleasant at all.....
But in my personal world , looking outward; it can't look any brighter.
I have had a couple of dates with the lovely woman who, for reasons completely unknown to me, continues to want to be in my world.
It is such an incredable feeling to know that someone can actually "want me' after almost 2 decades of being ignored and taken for granted.
Again, I am not downplaying the nights when I sit alone and the kids are with their mother for the next couple of days, and the pain and loneliness creeps back in like a cold draft through an old window. Those moments still happen.
But they are getting to be less and less, and less intense.
It actually occured to me a short while ago that "I should have done this sooner". How much of my life did I waste hoping and pleading that my refusing wife would somehow turn around and want to love me.
Everyone in this group has their own timeline and their own decisions to make.
I have no idea where my new relationship may take me. But for all of caring and loving men and women that I know are in the ILIASM group, I encourage you to look deep at yourself and make the decision that you can best live with...and then move forward with your life.
I got out...and I am very lucky. I have a woman who wants to physically touch me however and wherever she can, and I can't tell you how addictive the feeling is that someone wanting to touch me; even if it is just to lightly stroke my arm as we drive. And she looks at me.....I mean she looks deeply at me and I see this outpouring of love and desire and I sometimes feel as though I have to catch my breath because this has not been my world....ever.
I will offer any advise to anyone who asks.
I will continue to peak around and read the stories.
But after over 5 yrs in this group, I am so glad I made the decision I knew was best for me. And I encourage you all to do the same.
Beaverman 41-45, M 8 Responses 5 Nov 2, 2012