I Had A Strange Dream, What Do You Think?I am posting this here because it has to do with the SM I am living in. I have been contemplating divorce for some time now as some of you can attest to. I am having difficulties with vacillating because I don't want to hurt anyone, most of all my children, anyway, I was wondering what your interpretation of this dream was as my therapist and I disagree on what it meant. BTW, I think that I am ready to make the decision, it is just a matter of timing now as money needs to be saved, etc.
I was walking down a path, holding my H's hand. It was beautiful, warm, and sunny and we were happy and talking/joking around having a good time. The farther we walked down the path, the darker things got. Eventually, we weren't holding hands anymore and it was silent and very dark. We then came to a clearing on the path with a fork in the road. It was still dark and the path to the right was blocked and treacherous looking, however, I could see that if I could just get through the obstacles, it would be beautiful, sunny, and warm again. The path going to the left was dark but there were no obstacles, that's where my H stood waiting for me with his hand outstretched.
In this dream, I chose to take the easy path with him. The farther along we walked the more I seemed to fade and disappear. Inevitably, I disappeared completely and became a shadow following my husband, his shadow. There was no more me at all. I woke up feeling unnerved and even a little frightened.
When I told this to my therapist, who I am contemplating firing, he said it meant that I needed to lose myself in the marriage, that we need to merge and become one to help the marriage survive. This is where I am feeling like, what about me? Why do I have to disappear? Anyway, he asked me what I thought it meant. I told him that it scared me and that I was afraid I was losing myself and that I would be lost forever, there would be no more me, ever.
So, what do you all think this means? I am interested in your perspectives on what you all think this is representative of. Thanks everyone.