What's Next?!As it happened to many of you I bumped into this site after googling randomly for an answer to my question on the purpose of marriage and why I did it.
It all started 4 years ago but it was only 2 yrs ago that I acknowledged there was a problem with my life. So I went to a psychiatrist to treat my depression and suicidal thoughts but he concluded that there was a reactive depression and the suicidal thoughts were just an obsession, no real threat. He sent me to cognitive behavioural therapy. The second psychiatrist argued that I was coping just fine with my life and I should actually bring my H for couple therapy which... he strongly denied.
Also there were some minor issues with my not having enough rest, regular meals and too much stress at work so I changed my job and rescheduled my life. I thought that finally it was me who saw this life in grey shadows and should change perspectives. It took me a year to come to peace with myself and understand my goals, a year to become again the joyfull, focused person I was. I've done all this by myself as the 2 shrinks I've visited denied me a helping hand.
I dedicated this last year to fighting for a better marriage, used both repressive measures (no food on the table, no clean underwear, no new clothes for him) and romantic ones (tickets for a weekend escape, nice scents in bed, heart shaped food ..). Nothing worked. So here I am for new ideas, for random group psychotherapy...