PtsdMy H had finally decided to seek help to manage and get through his PTSD, that I believe is a part but not all of what has went wrong with our SL. It's been a couple weeks and It seems I might be getting the old him back piece by piece and it is an amazing feeling I can't even describe. Next to a feeling of sadness to think about how happy I am that my H actually wanted to have sex with me.
How do you build up what used to be your self confidence when the one person you promised to spend the rest of your life with is the one that at times makes you feel like the lowest of the low?
I've found that outlets such as working out more often and doing my own hobbies more have helped but it's almost as if I am constantly fighting a battle of is this time and effort worth it? Will it always be a feeling of depression that you are not good enough?
I suppose since I am choosing to stay with him to work through the PTSD and self confidence issues he himself faces, it is just something I'm going to have to deal with.