For Now But Not For Much Longer
I have been married for five years. In the last two years things have really changed. We use to have sex five or more times a week and now its like maybe twice a month, if that. Our sex drives never really matched but it was never like this. The times we do have sex now it is very emotionless, passionless, and unfullfilling. We dont have any real connection anymore. I have talked to my husband about this and he just gets upset or tells me I'm overracting. If it was just sex I could probably live with it. I would hate it but I could handle it. But there is no touching, kissing, or any kind of imtimacy. I have debated getting a divorce for the last year. My husband is very private and would never consider therapy. As I said, I've tried to talk to him and goes no where. I've brought up divorce in the past and he said hes happy and finds no problem with our marriage. This last weekend I told him I wanted a divorce. I dont know if I'm doing the right thing. I'm a little scared of starting over at my age. I know I may end up alone. Before that thought scared me into settling for what I have. But I realized these past months I'll be okay alone. I would have never taken the chance before but now I'm ready. Hopefully I wont regret it.