All I Need Is A Kiss.. To Be Able To Go On..

EP is helping me get all my demons out in the open. There is so much going on. So much information to process. So many new discoveries that I have made about myself, my relationships and my life.

After all the logical and everything, all I need really is someone to kiss me.. I havent had a kiss in last 10years. I know the FWB strategy isnt going to work, I know a lot of things that are not going to work. I dont have the strenght to make any real decision right now.

I wish even before I go any further I can have a kiss.. And possibly have sex..
Please God stop this cruelty..

All I need is an affectionate kiss, possibly a passionate kiss from someone who cares..

I would like to make love with a real person, without having to fix him first...
God please help..

Please someone put some sense in me, I dont want to be all this vulnerable..

uma1980 uma1980
31-35, F
5 Responses Dec 1, 2012

"I would like to make love with a real person without having to fix him first" - you say.

Essentially, you are saying - "I would like a normal life".

That, is not as complicated as it may seem. All you have to do is get out there in the real world and participate.

The difficulty is disencumbering yourslef of the abnormal world (and persons) your present environment involves.

It is a simple concept. But don't confuse "simple" with "easy".

Tread your own path.

How do you manage feelings like this? especially now that I am looking at my problems more closely, until now I had way too many other more important problems to deal with. I do realize that I cant go on like this forever.

Just finished with my sin, a big slab of chocolate brownie from the Betty Crocker clinic!!

sending you some passionate kisses and loveing hugs

No one in your situation wants to be this vulnerable. Being vulnerable could lead to make rash decisions.

I do agree with the passionate kiss. Such a kiss leaves one feeling desired, loved, and cared for. It's something a lot of us have been missing in our marriages.

Yes, because I never allowed myself to be vulnerable I never made any rash decisions, heck I never made any decisions, I never cheated, I never slept with anyone, I just controlled myself and kept on going ,praying for strenght. I want to feel vulnerable for once to feel like a human being again. I am an attractive woman is what most people tell me. I just never let myself go..
The only safe place to let myself go is probably on here..I want to cry and I want to be kissed, I want that one moment in life that I can live fully..

You're right. This is a safe place to vent and let it all air out. No one knows who you are personally. Your hubby will not find out what goes on in here unless you inadvertently tell him. So, go ahead: vent.