28 Married To 24 Yr Old Man
When i leave, he begs for me back. Satisfies me physically and emotionally. A month later we are back to reality. I love him so much. I kept my blinders on. I married him. Not even a year later i find myself just figuring this out. I've wondered.... How can a 24 year old man just not want sex? He's cheated several times. Im sure it took tact and time. So why do i get excuses as to why he has no time, no energy, or just no need to make love to me, his wife? I cater to him right down to laying his clothes out the day before and standing there to hand him his towel as he steps out of the shower. He insists he loves me, he cant live without me. I belive I have done this to myself thogh. I've made myself his mother, instead of his lover. I was raised to know that you should cater to your mans every need. However, I did not realize that meant my life would be boring, misserable, lonely, and an endless servitude to an ungreatful partner. I feel used and very much unloved. This being my second mairrage I was sure that it would be different than when i was 16. But I find it strange that I can see the gravity of my own situation, yet I have this feeling of weakness. I dont want to leave. I don't want to go through this again with someone else. I'm a beautiful person inside and out. I just wish there was a way to make my husband see how I feel. But would i dare? Might send me into a sick reality. He doest really care.