Lonely, Just Lonely
I'm with a man who doesn't have sex with me. He doesn't initiate it and when I initiate, he pushes me away. We have sex sometimes twice a month and sometimes not for several months. And when we do its for 5 mins maybe. I cant remember my last ****** with him inside of me. I can't say he doesn't desire sex because I honestly don't know. I recently found history in our computer of him looking at sexy pics of Danica Patrick, so I know he has some desire. I just can't understand why he doesn't want me. We are both attractive people, in shape, slender, stylish, etc. we are both in our early 40's so not as young ad we once were but still plenty of life and sexuality in us. We were high school sweethearts, we went our separate ways for 17 years. We've been back together for three years. When we first got back together we had sex all of the time. Some days we didn't get out of bed. Since I decided to move in with him the sex stopped. Literally immediately. He is very tender, loving, snuggles every night. He won't kiss me passionately unless he wants sex, otherwise it's just a peck, even if I ask for more. I'll try to nibble on his lip, he tells me to stop. I'm at this place I don't understand. I've never been with a man who didn't want me every day. I'm so caught up in the why of this that when we do have sex I can't relax. I'm so lonely inside.