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I Live In a Sexless Marriage

Alias Dolphin Champ Is Still Better Off Despite Everything.

By: Nestpa
Written on December 5th, 2012
By: Nestpa
Age: 66-70 , Male
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  • cheleshere

    I want to tell you that you have some very loyal friends here and well you should. You are an inspiration and my heart goes out to you and all you have been through and currently experience. Many of us have had similar and speaking for myself I am almost ashamed that I have complained. Still, I know...no, I expect, that you will triumph as you are a survivor and a humble one at that. Let me join the others sending you warm hugs.

    Jan 9
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  • Nestpa

    Describing myself as trailer trash isn't quite what you may think it is. I come from very humble beginnings in a posh UK town but born on the wrong side of the railway line (not wrong side of the bed, silly). I cherish this start and the real people I grew up with and the spit and real sawdust on the floor of the pub where I shared my first pint with my dad. I rose to the top of my profession and rubbed shoulders with and made millionaires and a few billionaires. These people cannot get down to my level to share some time with the ordinary (real) man and woman. They bandage themselves up in their little comfy worlds and do not live really live.
    Give me real people every time.
    I spent five days once in the presidential suite of Europe most expensive hotel (for free thank goodness) and watched people drip money, hire jets to move 'cos the weather at the other end of the Med wasn't up to scratch. It was obscene. I don't want to be part of that.
    I guess I'm looking down at these people looking down at me. I don't care but I suppose I'll stop using the expression. It's a leveler in a way..... like I might say to a client "I'm an expert....... an ex is a has been and a spurt is a drip under pressure......."

    I'm not miserable. Far from it. I'm slightly scared about going off on my European trips whilst the trailer park is closed. But heyho, it's just another first step. I'm treading my own path.

    Dec 14, 2012
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  • flyingstone

    You will never be trailer trash. You will never be friendless and you will always have the total self respect that only going through this will bring. How about that house in L.A.? Being on the homeless side myself, I can understand what living without a real place to land can be like. We only have to do one day at a time. That is what I say because of you! Who knows what might come along. Another thing is that your office is in your old home, so it seems to me that the court could and should grant you access to it. Perhaps the woman of the house should find new quarters to live in. You are a homeless senior and it seems to me that you should qualify for a whole lot of government help or do they only help immigrants who muck things up.

    Dec 12, 2012
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  • chocciebean

    You're my hero - but you know that!! xxxx

    Dec 8, 2012
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  • Frustrated1978

    Nestpa you are a strong bloke and good for you. If only more people had your attitude in life. This short term misery will pass once your divorce is final but at least you have ensured that you are not suffering long term misery by staying with your evil ex.

    I wish you all the best.

    Stay Strong & good Luck

    Dec 5, 2012
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  • oceansun

    I admire you,
    Good luck and God Bless you.

    Dec 5, 2012
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  • vaguestbaby

    Gotta strongly, strongly correct you on one jokey point:

    In no way are you trailer "trash".

    You are the opposite of trash. You are a person who has stayed strong, moral, sane, and even funny under the greatest duress.

    It is outrageous (and that goes double in England) that the word of a woman is de facto believed over a man's without any proof. I get that women are more likely to be abused then men, but this a grave injustice you are suffering.

    I recently read the bio of brit DJ Andy Kershaw who likewise was hung out to dry in his divorce due to the totalitarian-socialist newspeak political correctness that my second favorite nation feels compelled to inflict on itself -over and over again, punishing the best and most noble of its people like yourself.

    Your story vindicates my decision to hand over everything to my junkie ex and just run from England. If they would treat you this way, they would have surely hung me but good.

    I honestly wish I could offer you more than some support and empathy here. I hope someday to have the pleasure of buying you a drink, old friend.

    Keep a-goin'. Better days (eventually) ahead.

    Dec 5, 2012
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    • FriendofPromise

      I fully agree with the point regarding trailer "trash"... living in a trailer and keeping body and soul together under miserable circumstances doesn't make you trash.

      I did the same, through a Canadian winter, in a tiny trailer that didn't have enough space for there to be an differential between bedroom lounge and kitchen... and in the "bedroom" ceiling there was a leak that had rotted away the roof and the insulation was gone, so all that was between me and that Canadian winter was aluminium roofing...

      Never for one moment did I think of myself as "trash"... I thought of myself as being independent and doing what was necessary to get through a tough time.

      ...the med was not an option unfortunately... good on you!!

      Dec 7, 2012
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  • hl42

    Wow, what a fantastic attitude! Fraid I can't report it's warm in London, but I suspect you'll bring your own warmth with you.

    I'm admiring the way you've kept rage and frothing at the mouth at bay in the face of her despicable behavior - one of the things I'd fear most as a guy is the impact of false accusations that are treated seriously by the law, and with virtually no sanctions for lying. Victim mentality and pre-judging of men as violent & intrinsically guilty. And doubly despicable because it detracts from the pursuit of the genuinely abusive.

    Dec 5, 2012
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  • Belle1990Nothappy

    Despite your current misfortunes, your sense of humor is a blast! you cracked me up. YOU have a warm Christmas and a Happy New Year! Good luck!

    Dec 5, 2012
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  • LaoTzu

    Despite the references to the cold in your post, I found it very heart warming. Here's to your new life! Be well.

    Dec 5, 2012
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  • bazzar

    You must have been an already pretty resilient dude (a trait shared bt most refused spouses) but no doubt the years of exposure to her bullshit honed your resiliance to even greater levels.
    In some ways she did you a favour - in "training" you to cope with your current trials better than you otherwise might have done.

    Thing is, there will be an end to your present uncomfortable situation. In a dysfunctional marriage the uncomfortable situation never abates, there is no light at the end of the tunnel.

    I found this story quite uplifting, not the least of reasons being that the dysfunctional marriage, and present circumstances, have completely failed to damage your sense of humour.

    Have a blast in the Med Brother N.

    Tread your own path.

    Dec 5, 2012
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    • Nestpa

      Hi Baz,

      People pleasers like myself learnt to be that pattern at a very early age and it's our control drama, the way we cope with our world. We then keep coming up against the same problem time and time again but each time getting into worse and worse situations. We trust others so much that our selfless/selfish balance is completely out of kilter on the selfless side. We just get taken for a ride until the one day the situation (suffering) is so great, we have to wake up.

      Codependents respond to counselling or in my case counselling/advice from EP friends very well and easily because we have always taken too much responsibility for things going wrong in our world. It is easy for us to accept that we need to change. The narcissistic emotional abuser is never wrong, cannot take responsibility for his/her actions and doesn't respond at all to counselling (99.9% of cases).

      When I came out of college donkeys years ago, my first job involved me living in tin huts in the African bush. I've always done things that others wouldn't tackle. They are life enriching adventures. That could be said to have been uncomfortable too. I'd do it again. Yes perhaps the S2BX has done me a favour. I never wanted to do the pipe and slippers bit anyway.

      Perhaps I'll make a fortune writing the book. LOL.

      I think you probably realise that I am or have become a rather philosophical spiritual type. The Buddhist word enlightenment to mean the end of suffering doesn't really have an English translation. Suffering can more closely translated as having a wobbly wheel, a wheel out of kilter. All we have to do is to get rid of the wobble.

      An example is the prisoner perhaps wrongly convicted who has two choices. He can rail against his imprisonment and he and only he will be desperately unhappy or find himself suffering...or he can accept and fully accept his (life) situation, live his life and find happiness. Both suffering and happiness come from within.

      And once you or I can get really deeply into this, the we can come from the place where love, joy and light have no opposites and the word forgiveness has no meaning. So when I look at my S2BX, I just see a very unhappy person desperately trying to maintain her own control (freaky) drama. Unable to get me to play along, she has desperately involved family, friends, the police, her doctor and the courts all meant to keep me in my place. It's an annoyance, a waste of time and money but that is all. I'm not playing ball: not responding. Ultimately she will become the lonely old lady recounting tales of her evil husband who deserted her when people no longer wish to hear the tale.

      I just feel sad for her. But there is nothing I can do about that. I am and will always be the cause of all her problems even if I am not there. I move on.

      Narcissists live their life situation and even though she has control of all the material things we and I have worked for, in her ivory tower, she can never be happy; content with her life (situation).

      I'll blast the Med. You never know, that item on my bucket list to join the egg club might get realised........ In the life of every egg, it gets laid.

      And another item on my list is I have to go to Waltonland to see Vegas.....and get away from our gnat's pea beer and Brillo pad snacks. Haha Vegas, that still makes me smile my friend.

      Dec 5, 2012
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    • enna30

      DC, you have always inspired me and never more so than now. I too am outraged that your wife (a) has the audacity tolie about you as she does and (b) gets a fair hearing from authorities without their investigating the situation.

      I LOVE your approach to life and it is inspirational for us all. I'm hoping you meet a warm, wonderful, sexy, intimaxcy loving, mentally sound and gorgeous millionairess on your holiday!!! {{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

      Dec 5, 2012
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    • Nestpa

      {{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs to you too, Enna}}}}}}}}. That must be your unattached sister you are describing? I'll be right over....... Tee hee

      Dec 5, 2012
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